Be still and know

Just had a moment: sitting on my bedroom floor, indian style, hands cupped together covering my face, eyes closed

muffled voice, What the heck am I doing.......

 deep exhale. 

 I am right where I need to be. 
T-Minus FO days.



**Lord if I ever get comfortable come, please come and break my ignorance and/or my complacency. Be my refuge, daily, moment by moment. Show me all I truly have is You. 

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